Confessions- ToyaTia sent me an email and said "I need you to join BGLU some time soon". It was then that I realized that it had been a while since I posted. The fact is and always has been that if there is a lull in my writing then I am going through something. Rather than go through it all, I will offer little tidbits of what I am learning. When the storm passes over, I will be more than happy to share. In the meantime, here are some tidbits and random thoughts. 1. I don't care what Michael W. Smith says, friends ARE NOT friends forever even if the Lord is lord of them.
2. I had to sow a seed into Your Boy's ministry and buy "I'm Lovin' It" online. See this is how I know that Justin Timberlake is a minion of satan: He always wants to put out songs that contain elements of things that I love. "I'm Lovin' It" is a blatant rip off of The Time's "777-9311" Right Steve? Also, "Until the End of Time" is one of the best songs that Jodeci NEVER did. And "Summer Love"? UGH! I can't stand him.
3. Amy Winehouse's music makes me want to drink hard, dark liquor. Like whiskey or some other brown, darn near corn liquor type liquor. I need her to not tell my business in "Tears Dry On Their Own". Do you ever have those times where it seems that you are AGAIN wasting time with the wrong kind of guy and as you sit next to him you think "This is some bull...."? Do you? Yeah? Then
STOP IT.
4. Is it okay to say that you love someone in spite of the things you don't like about them or fully agree with? I recently got cut off from a friendship that was very dear to me because he feels that he does not want to be loved in spite of the fact that he is gay. Tia loves me in spite of the fact that I drop jelly on the floor from peanut butter and jelly sandwiches. Who freaking cares? We would still take a bullet for each other. I love God in spite of the fact that He does not always answer when I want Him to. That is how I know my love for God is real. It's not based on the good things He does for me. I have fallen out of love with the romanticized version of God that I have created and have begun to search who He really is, things I love and don't love and all in an effort to truly love Him. I wish my friend understood this.
5. Spiderman 3: There were things about this movie that I am sure were not supposed to be funny. Like Peter Parker becoming EVIL Spiderman looked more like Peter Parker becoming EMO Spiderman: dark eyeliner, straight slicked hair, wearing all black with a bad attitude. That mess was funny, I'm sorry.
6. Fervent prayer can eventually turn into fervent praise. Still working on that one.
7. God will never give us more than what we can bear. That is why I have never seen Elliot Yamin the 3 times he has been in Nashville because the Lord knows if I see him, he is going to get talked to.
8. Loneliness is not always a curse. Sometimes it is something that God allows to get you into a place where you can really hear and rely on Him. There is an incredible 4 part podcast series on this by Paul Matthies of The Village Church. You can download it for free on iTunes. I watched another friend pack and move away this week and another guy I was crazy about start dating another girl. Neither of these are new situations. If you ever find yourself lonely in a crowd of people, even if that crowd of people like you, chances are you are beginning to understand that there are some voids that people cannot fill. I encourage you to embrace the loneliness by actually getting alone and find out what it is that God is trying to say to you.